Sunday, January 16, 2011

Not what I thought I’d be doing…

or where I would be nearly three years after delivering the precious baby girl that I had prayed all of my life to have. 

Last week,  I was shopping the sale at Michael’s for more baskets.  They run a great 50% off sale every now and again on their baskets and I load up when they do.  I had Luke with me and my hands quite full.  A curious toddler and two carts about to topple over make for an interesting shopping experience.  Fortunately, my daddy was running errands nearby so he met me and helped me fill a third cart full of baby baskets, push them back to the front of the store, check out and load up the van.  Boy, was I glad he came!   I think it was good for him, too…to be able to take care of his granddaughter in this way. 

Today, I am getting a little arrangement ready to take to Annabelle’s special place as soon as Luke wakes up from his nap.  I spotted it during my trip to Michael’s last week.  It is so her…the sparkly, pink heart, the pink roses and especially the pink bow.  I typically like to make the arrangements for her.  But, this seemed perfect just as it is.  It’s not what I thought I’d be doing or where I would be going nearly three years after delivering the precious baby girl that I had prayed all of my life to have…

But, it’s God’s Will.

My devotion the other day was titled “Do you trust God’s Will for your life?”  I sat on that a lot.  In complete honesty, I could say that sometimes I am just not so sure I do.  There are definitely times when I don’t like it.  That was hard for me to admit.  I don’t want to be the “ye of little faith” person.  I am sure someone reading this completely understands.  After weeding through my thoughts and after much prayer…the Lord has given me peace.  I knew as soon as I read that question that I do trust His Will.  Even knowing that on some days it will be harder to trust.  On days like today, I am learning even more to rest in His Will.

So, we’ll go and change her hairbow, deliver her flowers, sweep off and tidy up her space, say our prayers, give our kisses and then walk away and come home without her.  It will hurt…it always does…

But, it’s God’s Will.  And I trust Him.

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I think she’d like it! ;)

8 comments:

Katie said...

Oh Rebecca, much love to you. You're in my prayers this month, as always...your post and heart is so beautiful.

The Hardy Family said...

Rebecca, that is beautiful and perfect for your sweet angel. I love you bunches and lift you up in prayer sweet friend!

Evie's Story said...

It IS so Annabelle. For being a "blue" baby, that girl was born with a halo of PINK around her and I will NEVER forget seeing her wheeled into PC with camera crew following like she was a celebrity.....and soon after, seeing her donned with bows and blankets with her beautiful momma vigilantly bedside. So many memories at this time of year!

Praying for you always and loving you dear friend.

Shannon said...

I think she'd LOVE it! How perfect for suck a perfect little girl. Praying for you, Rebecca. Big, big hugs and lots of love!

Lindsay Dean said...

How could I possibly love a little girl that I never met sooooo much!? He brought us all together and I will be forever grateful for that! And yes, that arrangment was perfect. No tweaking necessary :-) love you, friend!

Our Family said...

It is perfect, just like her. I know she just loves it. Thinking of you this month! Love to you!

Bernie

Mike & Malynda said...

Love you Friend! I know that she is looking down on all of you and so proud of you & the lives you guys have touched b/c of her. I can't even begin to imagine what her birthday will be like in Heaven with your mom & Hudson. I'm so glad we read that book! Love ya!
Malynda

Laura said...

Thank you for the sweet comment on our blog. We think of your family and Annabelle every single day. She is such a special girl and will always be in our thoughts.

Love,
Laura